MC again

Today took mc again. But i really didn' want to take it but had no choice... haiz. had a really bad tummy colicy ache caused by constipation so this morning the pain was so bad until I almost fainted in the toilet. Had to crawl to my mum's room to call for her help . in the end she also didnt really know what to do. She was rather shocked cause when she saw me I had just recovered from my fainting and was all cold, sweaty and pale all over. it was really the most terrible feeling i have ever felt. its just such a terrible feeling after fainting. Though its not my first time fainting but the feeling is just horrible. The feeling is just like I wanted to die already and had no strength at all. Was tossing and turning on the floor and suddenly i just felt so alone... Haiz... But at least my mother was around this time when I fainted. Though she was nagging at me for not taking care of myself and not drinking enough water, not eating enough fruits but at least she was there... And before I went back to sleep she sprayed some lavender oil on my pillow so i could sleep better. Was really touched by her actions. She even called my ward for me cause I was too grouchy, tired and weak saying that I had to take sick leave today...

Anyways i am soo happy cause I am off for the next few days... Tomorrow Have to take AL cause my ward is closing down one day for some dr examination thingy. and the next 2 days after that am having PH and a off day!!! SO happy!!!