Hello... Its been a reallly really long time since I last written and during this period I went thorugh a period of highs and lows... Sometimes I wonder why I am doing the things i do, why am I a nurse.. I really cant remember anymore. I wonder why I am trying so hard, why i am studying. Why must I face this world with a masked face of mine. I dunno when these feelings started or where they stem from... probably the devil... When I go to work I am merely working for the sake of getting money... its my only consolation... Sometimes wonder whether I need a break from the place I am working or need something to jolt me back on track. I only know, that all these questions i am facing. No one can tell me... i only can find out for myself...

I really want to go back to being as happy as when i was in polytechnic... I dun want to lose that smile from my face.