Today was one of the worst days i Had working . Reason being that this morning i was really not feeling well to work. I was having stomach cramps, vomiting and was being blue and moody all over. Furthermore I they decided to cohort all the infectious patients in my room, so I was pretty stressed. Well, usually I would be ok but just today i was already feeling moody in the first place. My junior today did not even have time to go toilet or furthermore to go for break, so I helped her to fetch back one patient from a procedure and helped to sponge one patient and bring another one for shower. Even one of the nice staff asked me why since i came to b2 i Have stopped smiling as frequently as last time. I really dunno whether I am tired becaus eof school or I really dun feel comfortable there..

Here i feel so alone. Like even if anything happens to me or I need help, no one will help me... I feel so helpless sometimes. Is it because i am antisocial. I really tried mixing with them but sometimes I feel that we dun click I know I am not supposed to compare this with the previous place I worked, but here they really dun help one another, althoough they claim to be very united. One eg. today when I was doing a 45 minute massive dressing wearing my isolation gown I accidently pressed on the call bell. Initially I wanted to turn it off but i decided to leave it on and see who came to my help. but after 20 minutes , no one came. Only when my junior came back from bringing one of the patients for assisted shower did she come to check on the call bell. I was rather disapointed at the results. No one came to my help (although i didn't really need it)> I just have been used to the culture of helping each other as much as we can. I am just disapointed that when I come here, they dun practice the same thing , To Help One another...

Did God place me out of my comfort zone to let me experience different feelings??? Can I overcome it...