Love is still around

Today my mum just told me about my grandmother , apparently my aunt doesnt want to take care of her anymore, so they are thinking of rotating her to different houses over 2 weeks. Then they were thinking of getting apersonal maid for her each chipping in some money but my aunt was very reluctant cause she said its expensive... its kind of disheartening to hear all of this, I find my mothers side of the family is not close at all, wheras my father's side family is very closely knitted and my grand ma from my father's side gets treated so much better with TLC. I only know if this happened to my mother i would want to take care of her, cause she took care of me when i was young and even now...

Thinking of this it makes me think about what i see in the hospital.. Some families really treat the hospitals as a dumping ground especially for festive seasons like christmas and chinese new year. Some times i see the elderly patients all alone during cny. I can only offer them a smile or talk to them since during these times its less busy. i feel sympathethic but there is really nothing i can do for them. there was one time i had this very cute patient who looks like tweety bird and she was pretty lonely in the hospital. During one of the days, i folded a bottle of stars for her and wrote her a letter telling her how much joy her cuteness brought me and i hope she will be happy. Then i used to kiss her goodnight on her forehead sometimes, cause she was really sooo cute... haha... Besides that i dun really see how i can make them feel better emotionally besides praying for them also...

Sometimes i feel helpless, especially when i know someone is going to die but i can only see them suffer before my eyes, and only give them some relieveing medicine. but i guess all this is life. it only made me feel more enriching.

There are some really close knitted families around. During my night there was one of my patients whose youngest son, around 23 years old will stay throughout the night to accomapany her, then at night i will see him whispering to his mother;s ear and they will both be talking and holding each other's hands. Its really a sweet scene. There is also another patient who is quite ill and about 80 years old whose hiusband will stay throughout the night to take care of her and help in changing diapars. Then when we asked him whether he was tired he said, i should help her mah, she is my wife. She took care of my children last time, now i must take care of her..... its really soooo sweet until i feel like crying sometimes. So i beleive there is still love around even though sometimes its overshadowed by selfishness, deceit and all the bad stuff around.