Today was a ok day at work despite the fact that i was deployed to another station. In fact nowadays work is just so-so... after a while its just repitition... thats why i was determined to make a change in my life this year... I would either apply for a degree or apply for transfer, in the end i got the degree course so i guess i will be staying in the ward for the time being. but i guess maybe i wun want to stay here for long also, but only time will tell.
I cant believe it that i have worked 1 and a half years... I still feel inadequate in certain ways... My ward is a nice place to be in. I really grew , matured , blossomed (not sure that is a correct word to use)... However it can be a hell hole sometimes. But i guess thats what work is all about. It aint exactly a bed of roses...
Today was sitting at the bus stop waiting for my bus, was listening to the 200 pounds beauty song... then was just thinking to myself that i actually feel this emptiness in myself sometimes when i actually quieten myself down. I really would love to cry out to someone. But more than that i want renewed hope in my daily life... cause i really have been using my own strength to get thru day by day... (or more or less to say i have back slided away from god)... I really feel tired and empty sometimes... i feel ashamed to approach my cell group member to pray for me cause i have been MIA for so long... they have probably forgotten about me ba...
I have never been a strong christian... But i know that ppl need some pillar of support for their strength. And this pillar is something that cannot be found on this earth...Only then can we be pillars for other ppl.
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