Today I went back to my ward. It feels weird to be back again and i felt pretty disorientated. But it was a good thing i was doing junior work today. It is a good thing there were some students around to help around... i dunno how long I wanna stay around le, maybe in a moneths time I shall request for transfer out but to where is still an issue. Right now, I am putting all my time and effort on my nursing management essay which i think i shall lose sleep over. i am feeling depressed cause i really dunno whether I can finish it by then. I requested for a time extension but it was not granted... I dun care if i only sleep a few hours every night but I must get it done. I am trying to detach myself from everything around me that is distracting. I really really dun have time to entertain any other thoughts. I just want to get this over and done this. i just hope others will understand I am in a very difficult situation. Haiz. dunno why everytime it reaches this sort of assignment period there seem to be more distractions than normal. My friend asked me to go gym, another asked me to watch movie, another asked me to go out at night. Then my sister is coming back soon. i really wish could go out with her but will be busy, but at least have to give her some priority...

Ok, i better get back to doing my assignment!!!

OMG... I am so bloody drained out. Now I know the feeling of writing a essay when I have absolutely no knowlege whatsoever on the topic... So i am trying to read up more on topic , but time seems to be running out... Shit!!! Even though today I had a whole day to figure it out but was too distracted with other stuff, and i find it terribly difficult to write... Oh shit, i feel scared!!! tomorrow gotta wake up early to go school print out the articles I need. After that its back to my hell hole ward... this was a pretty bad time to go back i have to say... haha

Farewell my friends

Today my ward held a farewell party for the 4 of us leaving to go back to our wards next week. Initially, I was rather reluctant to go cause wanted to stay at home to start on my assignment but then thought i shuld go and get some sort of closure... I didnt regret going back today!!! It was such a nice stress relieving event. I came late and we had pizza hut, kfc and even had a cake ... Then we took alot alot of pictures which i will try to upload later when i get them on my hands... I feel sorta sad that i am leaving though i was sorta irritated that i get deployed out all the time... I guess thats the contradicting thing about human feelings... After that was tempted to watch the movie " Cyborg She" or go shopping... cause really feel like watching that show!!! But i told myself, I must try to be disciplined and do my assignment.... Sucks.. Life sucks.... arrrgh!!!! But I still wanna watch the show Cyborg She... seems like a nice show!!!

Monday going back to my ward to work... Must get my momentum of routine work back again...

Today is my sleeping day after my night... It has been the most memorable night shift i have ever had... Details i shall not dwell into but memories I will keep...

Today got an sms from my friend saying I will be going back to my ward next week, apparently my sister requested for me to go back to my ward... Actually i feel a bit reluctant to go back especially at this time when all my assignments are coming crashing. Though I know this is a place I dun really wanna stay for long but I cant deny its a good place to be now when I am busy with studies. I never regret getting out of the ward for a breather and i never regret this experience and oppurtunity to experience other stuff. Thank god for this experience!!!

My present ward holding a farewell party for me and another 2 staff going off next week. Actually feel like staying home and doing my assignment but i thought I better go, cause they prepared a farewell for us and think should just go... I dunno when will be the next time I see them...

Today went out with my poly mates jenny, hafiz and jacq... Its been a really really long time since i last saw them and we had a nice get together though it was a bit noisy and crowded at marina. After which we went to watch fireworks... it was really better than I expected. After that went home with jenny and we had a nice long chat... i am happy i got the oppurtunity to watch fireworks with my poly mates cause i remember when we were still in poly we would come every year. so was sort of nostalgic...

The past few nights have been a very naughty girl... anyways, cant say much about that... But tonight is my last night shift and i feel so happy... I really dislike night shift though i know by now should have accepted it...

Its already past one at night and I still cant sleep. I have been tossing and turning in bed since god knows when until I finally cannot stand it, decided to go online for a whiel... Tomorrow I am morning shift ... get it... I AM MORNING SHIFT., and i cant even sleep a wink... Well tomorrow I am pretty excited, cause after morning will be going out with my current colleagues to sing k box... Well... Although I still have a bit of a sorethroat as i am currently recovering from a flu I dun mind joining in the fun... ;).

I am pretty happy of the decisions I made , and my then rash decision to be voluntarily deployed out, cause because of that i experienced many other expereinces which I would not have experienced if i were in the same place. And these 2 months have been sometimes fun, sometimes busy... But nonetheless i am grateful for these experiences. Cause i made new friends, gained more experience, learned new stuff, felt new feelings... wat more could i ask for. There are still things in my heart i want to know but i realised its not something that will come just by thinking of it alone, so i will just take one day as it goes....