The past few nights have been a very naughty girl... anyways, cant say much about that... But tonight is my last night shift and i feel so happy... I really dislike night shift though i know by now should have accepted it...

Its already past one at night and I still cant sleep. I have been tossing and turning in bed since god knows when until I finally cannot stand it, decided to go online for a whiel... Tomorrow I am morning shift ... get it... I AM MORNING SHIFT., and i cant even sleep a wink... Well tomorrow I am pretty excited, cause after morning will be going out with my current colleagues to sing k box... Well... Although I still have a bit of a sorethroat as i am currently recovering from a flu I dun mind joining in the fun... ;).

I am pretty happy of the decisions I made , and my then rash decision to be voluntarily deployed out, cause because of that i experienced many other expereinces which I would not have experienced if i were in the same place. And these 2 months have been sometimes fun, sometimes busy... But nonetheless i am grateful for these experiences. Cause i made new friends, gained more experience, learned new stuff, felt new feelings... wat more could i ask for. There are still things in my heart i want to know but i realised its not something that will come just by thinking of it alone, so i will just take one day as it goes....

Today is my off day and i still have to spend the day studying... sianz... wat a life i have... Next monday I got a quiz on research so have to do a bit of reading up. Now in the sim library ... I feel so sleepy now after eating my dinner of sweet and sour pork rice... Yummy... Anyways nothing much happened recently. My monitor broke down so i had to buy a new one from challenger. i bought a samsung flat screen LCD one and it really looks good... i am pretty happy with my purchase...

Inner beauty and outer beauty... my mum always told me it not what matters on the outside but on the inside... And I always felt that inner beauty was of utmost importance, though sometimes it was something that could not be seen. However, as time goes on, I some how realise how insignificant inner beauty seems as in comparison to outer beauty. Even to me somehow felt my views have changed. Sometimes, I wish for that outer beauty that everyone is craving for... But off course , I know I should be contented with what I have. I always wished that in spite of my plain average looks and weird personality sometimes, someone would see through it and find it beautiful. I think its just wishful thinking... I think no one would bother with a plain , simple average girl.... Haha... I know it sounds kinda pessimistic... maybe its just realism... Maybe its just sorting out my thinking... I still think inner beauty is important after all. Its something that will never leave even when u grow old and wrinkly...

Today went back to work after a short break, however this morning my NC called up early this morning saying that my ward is closed down today as another ward is shifting up to our ward and we are shifting down to theirs... They asked me to take leave, however I dun have any more AL already which is rather distressing. So had to go back to my ward to work as a IV Nurse... It wasnt such a bad day anyways and I even had time to have break with lu ling and shirley which we usually would not have a oppurtunity... Anyways I am sick and tired of the kopitiam food... Its just so sickening to think about what to eat everyday during break. Maybe i should start cooking, but I am just too lazy...

Today shirley and me went home together. She was telling me about her trip to bangkok... It seems to fun... i also wanna go!!! She said we could plan a trip at the end of the year, but then I dun have any more AL already... I could use my PH , however I am planning on transferring out by the end of the year... Haiz.. there are just so many uncertainties and can't plan anything properly, but would I rather stay where I am... Many times i feel tempted to stay put where I am but I just feel there is so much more out there I have to experience...

There seem to be less interesting stuff to write about in my life nowadays...

Happy National Day 2008

Now watching the National Day Parade and wishing I were there... Its been so long since I went to the parade before as a spectator. I think maybe when i was in sec 4... After that I just couldn't seem to get the tickets. So what am I doing thoe whole day... basically nothing, basically eating instant noodles, playing sudoku, watching drama series and trying a study... a bit... What a boring life I have... Well at least I have time to put on a facial mask... hehe

I'm watching the dance component of the national day parade which i hate... its sorta boring and the same every year...

Which makes me remember... Its my 11th year in singapore... Congratulations to me~!

Trying to study but everytime I open the books I just feel so tired. I know this is just me psychologically. Haiz. whenever I think of this I think I am much better than those ppl who have to work and married with children. They have so much more committments than me so I just shouldn't complain so much. I really wish I could just spend all my free time playing and fooling around... haha. Instead of studying after a long days work... is this very immature of me... I dunno... haha. Anyways life still goes own. Still have to study hard...